During a working career of a little more than ten years, I’ve only recently come to wonder why it is that I do what I do. For the most part, I’ve been driven by knowledge – to learn more, to understand, to analyse. I’ve never been one to push my case, to become higher ranked, to be CEO. It has always been about analysis.
Today, as another project comes my team’s way, I’m beginning to wonder if I’m actually good at my job. Yes, I can dissect an issue. I can identify why things are the way they are. It’s just that in the business world, that is just a skill, a function. In the end, what changes am I leaving behind? What will I be remembered for?
The next year may be telling. I’m not comfortable. I don’t feel like I’ve got the best out of myself. I need to feel like I’ve done something and all I can think of are the words that my manager and the leadership team say amongst each other about my performance and how I could have been something.
It will be a telling year.